Part of getting to a new normal: our first date night in a few weeks. After a successful night of Black Friday shopping last night (despite Dan's terribly slow driving) and purchasing gifts for babies without panicking, me and Devin decided tonight we would go see The Good Dinosaur. Absolutely adorable.. Seriously.
A lot of subtle things like this movie have been reassuring me that having more faith is the answer. I've never been a "Belieber" but never hated JB either, this new album though. Woah. Absolutely love it. And I hadn't seen the tabloids about his profession of faith and Christianity, but I picked up on it from his album and now have read more into it, it's really amazed me. If someone with all of the spot lights on them, that has been at an extreme low (haven't we all?) can stand up and say "look I realize I need to be more like Jesus" then any of us can. And we need to.
Relative to this week, I'm just really thankful for the messages that I'm seeing all around me because it gives me faith that it's going to be okay. As long as I just keep putting it in Gods hands. It really is.
I read your entire blog... I had a perfect son who is now eleven years old, I had a daughter after that, we named her Hannah. She died when she was three months old to sids. I now have a daughter Jayna that is barely one year old. I tried in between to have another child. I even did IVF and successfully managed to get pregnant with twins. I lost them at thirteen weeks. This last pregnancy was the hardest I've ever had, and the year after she was born even harder. Loosing a child is the worst thing possible. I am a better mother because of my loss. I know my child's worth. I never take one day for granted. When you do decide to have another baby my only advice is don't wait until you're ready and take every moment in as it may be the last. Those are the only two things that I wish someone could tell me. I hope you wish,dream,and find comfort in your loss. Best of wishes.
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Thank you so much Sam, for reading and for your kind words. I can only imagine the kind of mother you are! I am so sorry for your losses, but it gives me a lot of comfort that you have found the good (being an amazing mother) in your pain. That's the most important thing to me at this stage of loss is that people don't take their days for granted, or their time with their children. I'm humbled by you're strength <3
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